Day #3 - Off To A Great Start, Why Daily Dose Failed

    Was up by 6 and out of bed by 7:30 am! Now that's what I call a damn good start to the day!! I've gotten nearly all the things I need to get done, done, and everything else is on schedule to be finished before the days end. Now, I'm going to be honest, I made a promise to someone before I committed to this regimen that I would have a drink or two with them tonight, but there will be no smoking of any kind going on and no drinking there after - I call it my exempt night lol.
   I'm feeling my old energy creeping on me. The way I used to feel long before I smoked and over did it on the drinking. In fact so much so that the cravings have all but ceased (aside for the one I had when walking past the dining room table and seeing that solitary cigarette that my mother left home...THANKS MOM.) I honestly think the best feeling I've had so far was singing in the shower...and not having my throat seize up on me as it usually does. Don't get me wrong I'm no where near where I was...but after three days of no carcinogens I'm truly surprised at the results. It's things like that , that keep me pushing forward with exercise , daily planning, learning, eating better and overall thinking better. It all stems from finally making the choice to commit to change.
   
NEXT


From doing this the last couple of days I can see why I failed last year: trying to vlog every damn day is a death wish. Trust me guys , if you don't have any help and your trying to do a 10 minute daily vlog (why did i always try to do 10 minutes) it will stress you out, run you down, and ultimately you will fall back into the habits you were trying so hard to break. In fact you can't tell but while I was doing Daily Dose in quite a few of the latter videos I was smoking...shit I was smoking WHILE recording the Paris/Tokyo video. I was pretty ashamed of myself. I took on far too much on and off screen. Doing one video of Daily Dose was about 30 minutes - 1 hour of filming, 2 hours of editing, an hour to render, and 1 - 2 hours to upload due to the AVCHD format. That's not even including planning from episode to episode! Plus the added weight of not getting the viewership I wanted ultimately killed the show and broke my spirit. I expected too much from it , instead of just going for my goals and enjoying myself. It stopped being fun for me....so I threw in the towel.
   
   With this format I feel I have more freedom to just be , and typing is a helluva lot easier than trying to be witty 5 days a week. I feel more compelled to tell you about my progress, excited even! I'll still be vlogging but only once a week on Fridays. It'll allow me to still showcase my goofy side...but I'll actually look forward to it this time...instead of dreading it. My goals seem a lot more attainable than ever before and my stress level is non existent. Time will tell if this will be the case in about 3 weeks but my hopes are high!


Well that's it for now. Off to walk the dogs and I shall return with an end of the day recap!




Moral of this story:
DON'T BITE OFF MORE THAN YOU CAN CHEW...or you'll CHOKE.


DAILY OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUT.