Last day of the old me, and welcoming new beginnings.

    As I smoke my last pack of cigarettes  and sip on my final glass of wine for a while, I'm reflecting on all the goals I set out to do over the last year and realized: I achieved nearly NONE of them. Now as negative as that sounds I can only sit here and laugh. By all means I should feel like a failure , but I don't. I'm 26 years old  with an overabundance of talent and potential and yet here I sit in nothing but a towel wondering why I haven't done anything for myself - with myself in this life of mine. When these questions arise it always comes down to this : Me.
    You see we all create the paths that we walk on. Every decision , every choice we make, helps to pave the way for a new network of opportunities - or a bevvy of missed ones. We can want all we choose to, dream as large as we can and have ideas that dwarf even the Sun - yet at the end of the day if we don't ACT with these ideals , these dreams, that is all they will remain : dreams.
   Now you see why I'm laughing. I have no one to blame for my state as it stands besides me. My life has come to a stand still NOT because of the actions of others, but because of a LACK of action on my part. I get halfway there, say "meh this is good enough" , and drop the ball. Is it any wonder why I'm still waiting in the wings for my chance to shine? Of course not! At this point I'm beyond ready to hold myself accountable for not being the man I've dreamed of being. I'm ready to make a change - starting now.
   That brings us to this lovely new blog called Project : Restart. Why is it called as such? The reason is because I feel I'm back at the starting point of it all, as if the game has ended and my finger has jammed the reset button. To most that would seem like a bad thing. For me it's a chance to start fresh and to make the choices and moves I so NEED to make , to have the life I feel I deserve.
   Come Monday I will begin working on my vocals to a near militant degree , working on my body inside and out to become a healthier me, become a better dancer and writer, finally shoot the films I've always wanted and more. I'll set short term and long term goals to keep myself motivated and grounded and hopefully you will be here to see it all. Also every Friday I will post a video detailing my progress as well as blog every day to keep you abreast to all that is going on.
   This year is about restarting, renewing, rejuvenating and reviving the spirit that once raged inside me. Here's to 2012, and here's to the Restart we all deserve!!!


*takes another puff and another sip* SALUD!!!